rebirth

less than 24 hours left. wednesday at 7pm my life changes. everythings going to be washed away and i'm going to start new. i'm so happy. with a tear and a smile i'm embracing this. i'm leaving behind all the pain i once clung to and yearning for the peace i've always desired. right now everything is bliss. i feel the love thats been idly surrounding me since my existence began. only now its sprung to life. Jesus created all this and to Him i surrender. everything. i'm glad just to sit here and behold the amazing presence of God. its empowering, awakening, amazing. He is the only one that holds every part of me, the broken, the healed, the brand new, the innocent, the vile, the lifeless, the decrepit, the hopeful, the wonderful, the amazing - He holds it all and its beyond words to say how truly awesome it is. Faith, i'm praying for you and i miss you already. i love you so much and i know you'll pass. Alden, you were right about my sister. after tonight i'm so glad to have her. i spent a bunch of time with her giving her a bath even though i was dead tired and so drained. shes adorable. shes one of my many blessings and you helped me realize it. i hope you know how awesome you are, and not just concerning this.sorry if those two people arent you. they ^^ have been on my mind and i felt the need to say something nice about and to them. <3 luvies.