home, is a feeling ive buried in you

i want to cry so much. todya sucked, at least the part from 5 to 8pm. i babysat two kids. theyre sweet but they drain so much from me i could crash the moment i walk into their house. and my dads watchin a sad movie and talking to my lil sister about zena being in heaven. it hurts. i dont even know why. its this big sore spot that i cant even think about without tears coming. i havent cried yet though. yey...i guess. yall pray for me on that and everything else in my life. thanks. luvies <3.