over and over again i am spiraling

last night was really long. i babysat this really cute lil girl named amy, if you know her you know what i mean. shes just so adorable im considering having a kid and trading for her lol. i got to talk to alden again too (yey!!). i like talking to him in case you hadnt guessed. hes one of the more intelligent guys ive ever met. and he isnt concerned about the sexual stuff that could happen. i'm frustrated today, completely unrelated to last night except that i'm still kind of tired. i want to see ash and alden so much, but ash isnt cooperating. i even found a really good deal on a ticket but she said she couldnt say its okay till almost February. how screwed up is that? but i guess if its planned it will happen. if you remember, pray for me on that. love yall post loving comments haha