feeling trapped and forced to conform

This is to be another addition to my book; I know it's not one of my best. I wrote it to a particular group of people at the time, but it can apply to many people in my life at one point or another. If you have any comments on this or any other posting reply plz!!no titleI'm everything you thought I would beso consumingcan't you seeI'm lost inside and it's perpetuatingall i see is mebecoming you don't you see I'm lost without medrowning in your waysrestricted by your ever changing waysI only wanted youto be yourself and let me beso I could stay locked inside myselfconsuming me not only youI know you think I've failedtrusted myself too muchto bring closure to myselfbut I can't feel you theretrying harder to destruct meI'm going to wake up one of thesedays so far away

the unlovable side of me

I wrote this when I was feeling really depressed and unlovable and just yucky about everything. A day or so after I found out that my pastor of nearly ten years is retiring the end of January and the last thing he wishes to do is baptize me. This poem is me expressing my feelings to God.with nothingwhy am i so emptywith nothing left to compromisewhy's the hurt keep comingwith nothing to subside itwhy do i feel so alonewith no one to turn towhy do i writhe in anguishwith nothing else left to trywhy do i keep on fightingwith my unshielded wordswhat's the point in all thisif all i am is worthless